Returning to the Sea

Death comes in threes. First it started with my Tsunami dream. And then my Uncle's death. And now my Father's.

At the end of the day I guess we all return to the Great Mother. We all return to the Sea (see?). After seven days, father does transfigured from a rainbow body to a full light-body being. He is on his way to be in one with the Universal Soul.

And the Soul does take care of things without us knowing it. Yesterday I was so moved when I received a call from my mother and learnt that she has her own way of releasing, letting go of the grief for the loss of her husband. And I am glad to know that she has plans to go on living, and that she has definite ideas as to what she wants to do and live. And then I received another call from my sister. A simple call really just to see if I am interested to get a large salon size facial gel cleaner while she is getting one for herself. That's her way of showing concern and letting go of grief as well.

I felt touched, relieved and moved, to learn that the Soul is really much wiser than we are. IT will take care of us. And that I do not have to worry so much about them. The Soul will take care of them and do what is best for them. And that some weight can be let down off my shoulders.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.

Amen.

錢？水！

Today last year, it was the second day of my circumambulation of Kailash. The day where we reached the highest point of the 3-day circmbulation, and the day where we dedicated our past for a new life and future. Silently in my heart I am still in awe of what the journey has brought me to date, and pondering what may come next.

Yesterday the word 同胞 was the first thing ringing in my mind when I woke up. My mind began to contemplate what this two words mean. How far have we gone from 同志 to 同胞 especially seen through the latest earthquake. Such closeness and oneness when we speak of 同胞! Literally it is "same cell". And of course later during the day when I found out there was the Artistes512 show from 2-10 pm for fund raising. This 同胞 essence was brought to its zenith that I can see in recent years. And I am moved/touched/celebrated to begin to see humanity germinating in the mind of Chinese, be it Hong Kong Chinese, Maninland Chinese and Taiwanese Chinese.

And sharing. Brought me back to something happened during my pilgrimage also. As we all have seen on TV, there are Tibetian practioners whom would do the pilgrimage in the most sacred way, i.e. to use all five limbs to touch the ground as they do the whole circuambulation around Kailash. Our leader told us before hand that we can prepare some small change to give to them as a sign to support them. I did not change much, even though in my heart I had the deepest respect for them.

I saw a few of them, some even did it in a family, with the father leading, the daughter in the middle and the mother following. Some did it in a small group. I ran into two women whom were doing the pilgrimage together in this most sacred way. I was taking a break myself when I saw them coming along. I waited for them to pass to show my respect. Well, they stopped right where I stopped also. I thought it's time and I should give them some change as a sign of support. I reached in my pocket and found that I have no more left. So I moved my shoulders and opened my hands to indicate to them that I had no more change and that I am sorry. They smiled and pointed in the direction of my pocket. I give them an embarassing smile to indicate to them that I have no more change. There was a moment of silence and that was that.

I then took out my water bottle to have a drink of water. One of them came up to me and pointed at the water bottle. Immediately I knew what they were asking and what they were pointing at before. I was so ashamed! I immediately poured water in her hands and she took in all in. The other woman also came forward and again I poured water into her hands as well. Afterwards I asked them if they wanted more. They shaked their head and cross their hands and thanked me. Then they moved on. But I was totally stunned! For a while I was totally speechless. What was I thinking! It was the most vivid time that I realized money is not the solution to everything. And not everyone wants that. And money is not applicable in all situation. How different is that value system can be?! It opened my eyes to begin to see/understand/feel deeper what is truly needed in a situation.